A name is what you make it.

Since there is a big gap between my first post and this post it can mean a few things. Actually it really just means one, I don't have the balls to do this. I want to write all the time on a blog like I was Perez Hilton. But I'm not that.. dedicated to telling everyone my thoughts.

And that has been my problem. It has been my problem with my relationships, with my work with my school with my family. With everyone I've ever met I've always felt I had to hide away what I think because I'm afraid what people are going to say. 

I'm simply afraid. And I need to stop it. I'm smart enough to know that my fright is only going to stop me. I don't mean to go off into "Dr.Phil" land. But this is it. I can't hide from the fact that when people ask me, "Oh why didn't you actually go through with these things you want to do?" My only reply is, well "I don't know." which really translates to "I"M FREAKING AFRAID"

So this blog should also serve as a way to break free of that and to illustrate the massive moves I'm going  to make. Because f**k it, I'm sick of answering "I don't know."